I could not sleep well tonight so when I woke up I listened to Ravi Zacharias who preached on Hebrews 12 and before that reminded us the significance of Hebrews 11. I turned on the TV and Christine Caine was on so I tried to watch a couple minutes. She had too much energy for me at 3am so I turned the volume down as her scripture popped up Hebrews 11. So I decided God was prompting me in my restlessness to go read it again for myself and here is what I found:
13 “All these died in faith, without receiving the promises, but having seen them and having welcomed them from a distance, and having confessed that they were strangers and exiles on the earth. 14 For those who say such things make it clear that they are seeking a country of their own. 15 And indeed if they had been [l]thinking of that country from which they went out, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 But as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God; for He has prepared a city for them”(Hebrews 11:13-16)
Something does not seem right. I don’t belong right now where I’m at. I can look back on lyrics I wrote 20 years ago and be reminded that I did not feel like I belonged then either. Being a musician at times makes me feel like I don’t belong. Being a Christian sometimes makes me feel like I don’t belong. Being a missionary who is leaving church,career, family, friends and all stability behind to be with a people group whom God has placed on my heart makes me feel like I don’t belong. There is a problem and the only solution I can see is that it’s all for a reason. I don’t belong because this world is not my home. “I desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one.”
At the top of the chapter, it tells us that “faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” (Heb 11:1) How inconvenient can you possibly get? I should be from Missouri because I’m sort of “Show Me” kind of person. But then again, God has shown me! Time and time again when I have failed and I’ve been carried through not on my own strength. He has always been my rock in times of sorrow. My life is grand and I can only attribute that to the work of His hands. This makes me feel as if I do belong somewhere. I hope if you struggle with feelings of being in the wrong place that you let that take hold of you and give you the encouragement you need.